urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mshanks202MonicaMonicaMonica2038-01-19T03:14:07Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mshanks202:13756"Be Who You Is"2038-01-19T03:14:07Z2038-01-19T03:14:07ZMatt NathansonI officially enrolled in all my spring and summer classes at Scraft earlier this week. I even paid in full! Supposedly Pete's mom is going to give me the $1k she gives all her grandkids for each semester, but no official word on that yet. I hope she does; once I have that money I can comfortably pay off my SAU student loans! Of course, my mom is trying to pressure me into paying it off gradually.. "It's good to have money in the bank!" We'll see. I haven't made a decision.. <br /><br />I started my two online spring classes yesterday, and they're a joke. I just don't understand the education system. "Take these useless classes, regardless of what you already know or your actual level of intelligence, and eventually we'll give you a piece of paper saying you're a worthwhile human being who will be useful in the workplace." That's honestly how I see it, and I figure, if that's how it works, why the hell would I spend boatloads when I could spend pennies? <br /><br />I haven't felt 100% the past few days, but I didn't think too much about it. I mean, you know those days where you just feel kind of off? Well, tonight I started feeling not so good, and I ended up having a fever. FML. Swine flu. Hahah, maybe not, but I at least have a cold!<br /><br />Today ended up being far more enjoyable than I anticipated. I had such a nice time, and I never would have guessed.. <br /><br />I have to go to Spring Arbor this week to get possesions of mine that people have yet to return to me, and I am really not looking forward to it. I am so incredibly bitter at almost everyone there, it isn't even funny. I want to have to see anyone, with the exception of like, two. Those people just don't make any effing sense. "We love Jesus, and we love you, but don't be surprised if we completely fail as friends!" Don't even get me started on those bitches. Geez.. <br /><br />My Uncle John came over today to give us mushrooms he dug up in the woods, and he visited with us for a while. He is my favorite uncle, but I think that would shock him. Hahah, he's so funny.. Everyone in our family thinks he is such an ass, but I honestly think he's great. He cares about actually being a good person as opposed to pretending to be, and I admire that. Tomorrow another one of my uncles is coming over for dinner and the Red Wings game, and that should be okay. It can get awkward, because he was my dad's best friend when my mom and dad were dating/married.. But I think it'll be okay. Due to his semi-recent legal and financial issues, he tends to be on his best behavior around us. <br /><br />I've been thinking lately about who I want to be.. Prof Bippes always used to say, "be who you is, because if you aint who you is, then you is who you aint," which is logical. But what if I don't want to be who I am? What about the things I don't like about myself? I need to be who I aint, so I can become who I want to be, right? But who do I want to be? I just don't know anymore..